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i dont know what to do already.

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baby...

i will be out of town for few days at the end of this week lorr...

i know baby will be able to take care of yourself..

but i still miss taking care of you~ mwaaa..

i love you baby girl~

<3 all the way from the boring office~ :D

.i miss.

i miss you flipping your hair..

i miss you the moment you hop in the car and hellooo at me..

i miss you making weird face expressions when you take in pure shots..

i miss you hopping around, skipping around..

i miss you doing all those silly things..

i miss you hugging me tightly..

i miss you smiling at me when you see something that you wish to buy.. (highly not encouraged)

i miss you checking yourself in front of the mirrors, whenever you have the chance to..

i miss you hugging all the clothes and bags that you like and making the orgasm noise..

i miss you doing the i-dont-care-how-you-look-at-me, i-still-gonna-eat-it-anyway look. :)

i miss you doing the slurrpp tounge action when you see nice food..

i miss hearing your cute voice..

i miss seeing your name across the phone..

i miss you trying hard to hint me when you see clothes/bags/accessories/anything that you like..

i miss seeing you eating..

i miss feeling you in my arms..

i miss you kicking me off my bed, coz i was trying hard to tickle you..

i miss you when you were having hard time choosing food..

i miss hearing you saying u miss me too..

i miss you running towards me and give me a tight hug..

i miss you trying so hard to kick me..

i miss seeing you doing the awkward look when the lift suddenly opened, and the ppl in there, saw us hugging and do swing swing~

i miss hearing you lecturing me when i hurt myself or i fell sick..

i miss seeing u munch of food happily and doing the funny look..

i miss everything about you..

i miss you silly..

i dont know why.. i just do.. :)

.back in action.

helloo..

i dont know wat's getting into my mind.. :) but i know everything is going to be hard but i still wanna take on the chance.

i sincerely believe that everything is gonna be alright. Dear, you wish that too right?? work along with me.. dun so mang mang edi laa k? :) i know i always annoy you.. and half of the time, i didn't even know i was doing that.. i am sorry. i will watch what i say and do. :) i dowan to be an annoying shiat to u biee..

i am sorry i went to find you yesterday. :) i just wanted to make sure you stay healthy.. i am sorry bie.. will try to reduce all these bullshits edi k? mwaaa..

hearing you being so cold to me, really kills~ but i know all these are just a period of time.. we will get tru it bie..

because i want it to :) and i am happy being with you dear~ please dont say i am not happy k? :)

and your smiles are what i crave for. i miss you smiling at me..

i miss your sweet looks.. i miss you doing silly moves.. i miss you manja-ing at me.. i miss hugging your back.. i miss watching you from the back.. i miss watching you hopping around.. i miss you making noises like herghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... i miss everything of you dear.. :)

i wish everything will be fine..

i am slow i am boring.. but i just wanna baby to know that, baby can have fun even when baby's with me .. :) i will try to make changes..

Changes :)

here i come.

.emo me.

i am sorry dear..

i couldn't resist myself not to text you..

i really miss you..

will you come back to me? :(

it's only 2 days but it feels ages since you are away.

every night, the thoughts and images of you kept flooding my mine..

i dropped tears watching our vids and pics.

i really miss you dear.

i would give up anything in the world just to have you back.

i am waiting.. :) still waiting and will be waiting..

dun cry ohhh dear~ not pretty one le.. :)

Day 2.

i managed to catch some sleep :)

weeping on my bed, thinking about the times we used to spend with each other.

i know i havent been spending enough time with you dear. if only i have a chance again. :)

i am not a photo kinda person, i dont like to take pics. but with you around, i like to be in the picture with you. i feel different :) and i still keep all our pics.

maybe i will keep them in a place. where ever they are, they remain in my heart, coz i cant possibly be forgetting all the times that we had together.

you will be in my heart too. <3 you dear.

imissyousillydear.

i happy enough to know that you still care for me. =)

.miss.

maybe i have taken you for granted when you were around.

now that you are gone, i miss you like hell.

and i know chances are there for us to get together again.

but not now. :) i know..

time will come.

please dun kill my chances.

.Day 1.

Realising that you have gone from my heart, isn't appealing at all..

it sucks.

i miss you so much.

especially what we have been tru all these while. all the Ups and Downs.

i know i still love you. and when i see the tears rolled down from your face. i know deep down, you still feel the same for me. But i do understand that you want to have a different phase now. and it doesn't involve me being in it.

it sucks.

and now i cant even text or call you. imissyousomuch :(

if only u r reading all these now.

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k i understand now. :)

suddenly all these are meaningless now.

i feel small. i am nothing. at all.

20 months & 16 days

As much as the title could tell, yes i guess everything eventually has to come to an end.

and i chose to do it rather than putting you into the awkward position to struggle and suffer the process of coming out the words to say it to me.

i know how hard it's, coz i am not enjoying every bits of it. :)

20 months and 16 days. and i wished it could get any longer. but i also know that i cant be that selfish anymore, instead of me being happy, while you alone there, being not quite happy :)

sorry if for the past 20 months and 16 days i havent been around u most of the times, i promised but i failed you. I must say that, the moments when you were around, were the best in my life and i will remember it for as long as i can. and i hope you will treasure the times that we had, and keep it into a lil box inside your heart.

Maybe.. just maybe, one day u will open it up again.. and u will see me waiting for you.. i am waiting for you.. :) i will always be waiting..

Must take care of yourself k? dun always silly silly and get into troubles.. i might not be there to solve for you but i am always there to listen out for you.. :)

Chengi Amanda, you remain as the love of my life :) i love you.

i heart you. till the last drop of my tears.







sorry blog, i always neglect u over my gf( all the time ).. and when i am alone, it seems only true that, you are always around to talk to me :)